First Thoughts On The New Job

A mishmosh of thoughts in no particular order:

My commute is so much shorter than at my last job and it is amazing. That extra 40 minutes a day makes a huge difference in my energy levels.

There’s a lot for me to do here. Which on the one hand is okay since I have a pretty good idea of the steps I need to take to make a real impact. On the other hand, I’m still feeling lazy and like I just want to continue to read books, idly amble about the neighborhood, eat at all the nice lunch buffets nobody else goes to because they’re busy working, and watch GLOW all day. Is that too much to ask? (Yes, obvs.)

I feel like I’m ramping up on our systems very quickly. It probably helps that I spent a ton of time in my funemployment researching the company, interviewing the team for pre-job input, and reading MBA-esque books to prepare.

I don’t understand people who get “bored” in retirement. Were it not for money and all that, I could have readily extended my month of funemployment for years without a problem.

How am I so freaking tired from sitting!?

My anxiety is being super mellow right now and I’m kind of concerned? This is the first time I’ve majorly switched contexts and have felt basically nothing. Like, super blasé. No anxious flutters, no desperately wanting to impress or please. No excitement either, even though I felt really pumped about this transition only a month ago. Is this normal? Am I depressed right now?

Everybody seems nice, inoffensive, and not cynical here. It makes me feel weirdly uncomfortable… what does that say about me as a person?

I think part of the reason I feel so emotionally uninvested right now is probably because fiancé and I have decided, unless there’s a significant turn in the political tides, that we need to seriously consider moving next year. I feel ambivalently like I am both overreacting and underreacting. It’s been taking up a lot of brain space. Ugh. I don’t even know how to live life as if everything’s “normal” anymore.

I’m so unused to talking to new people. So many times new colleagues came up to me with, “Hi!” and I responded, “Good! I mean, hi!” Facepalm.

Have you ever felt “meh” during the first week at a new job? Any tips for making the transition back to work?



8 thoughts on “First Thoughts On The New Job

  1. Yay for a new and much quicker commute! I definitely know from experience that it makes a huge difference. And I also relate to how funemployment is still totally more fun. Even when I enjoy a lot of aspects of my work, which I totally do, well, reading for fun and having maximum flexibility in my schedule even just to run errands when stores aren’t busy is totally better.

    I’ve also experienced the thing where I was suddenly in a work environment where all my colleagues were… totally and completely different (and probably for the better, less cynical, less temperamental, and less competitive). One gets that transition when jumping from biglaw to not-biglaw and also when going from the NYC legal market to almost any other legal market, I think. The norms of behavior are noticeably different, beyond the fact that NYC biglaw may also attract a larger percentage of people with some fairly hard-driving and somewhat difficult personalities. I find it really weird.

    Things are super not-good politically, but I’ve been dealing with it at the moment by avoiding the news… which isn’t great, but ack. I lived abroad for a while before law school and had very specifically felt that I preferred living in the US because of some of our constitutional values that aren’t present elsewhere (equal protection, among other things), but that’s being very sorely tested now.


    1. Yeah, every time I’ve been abroad, I’m consistently struck by how capital-A “American” I am. As bad as it is right now, there are a lot of ways at least in the past I have felt far more comfortable here, race- and gender-wise, than in places I’ve visited in Europe for instance. I’m also realizing how difficult it is to emigrate both in terms of immigration policies of other nations and shielding foreign-held assets in case widespread forcible asset seizure happens (apparently my brain goes from 0 to 100 in like ten seconds).

      That said, I do worry things are going to get a lot worse for a while before they get better. Especially with the state of SCOTUS. When we have kids, I want to raise them in a place where there’s at least the expectation (if not the reality) of safety and good governance. I want for that place to be the US, but who knows.


  2. Do you know where you might move? It is something that we are not seriously considering yet, but in the back of our minds quite a bit. We don’t have an obvious place to move to, and I’d like to stay and help make the country better… but leaving is not something that is out of the question.

    I’m glad the new job seems OK, and feeling “meh” doesn’t seem that abnormal. A reduced commute is life changing!


    1. Thinking Ireland because fiancé qualifies/is applying for citizenship which feels distinctly safer than being a resident assuming the US goes through significant political turmoil. Obviously, we really don’t want to move and a very large part of me is thinking I’m being overly alarmist, but I also feel like we’re in a frog boiling in a hot pot situation. I don’t know. I feel so unsure.

      Unsurprisingly, it is quite difficult to emigrate to an Anglophone country. Timeline looks to be 6-9 months going through the various skilled worker programs in Canada, Australia. Quickest I’ve found is going to the Netherlands via DAFT (self-employed American residency permit only, no local employment; 3 month timeline; seem to be able to be in the country while waiting for approval).

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  3. Shorter commutes make all the difference! I had a 2.5 hour round trip commute at my last job and it was absolutely killer. There’s something so delightful about the honeymoon phase of a new job!

    My FI plan always involved leaving the US, but to a place with a similar (or higher, depending on currency at the time) cost of living, so my FI calculations is our FI number for our current city and then to run more specific numbers once we reach that. I would like to move up the timeline, but my husband doesn’t even want to commit to leaving by age 40, so we are at a crossroads. Turns out he wants to wait for full FI, but my plan had always involved waiting until partial FI. This will likely result in me retiring first while we stay here, he enjoys his job, and we save to FI. I find this a frustrating crossroads though because I would honestly love to sell our condo right now to get away from our board president and property management company, but I don’t know where we would move to locally. Do we buy a house? Do we rent an apartment when that would run us a loss each month without adjusting our budget?


  4. Hurrah – shorter commute is a huge plus!

    I felt meh at times in my first few weeks at work – adjusting to corporate life, really, in terms of the scale and the culture. I mean, everyone’s lovely and all but definitely not as friendly (might be a personality thing with my team) compared to my non corporate workmates at previous jobs, my boss is crazy busy, I was not used to having to swipe my card to get through every single door, and use Internet Explorer (ugh).


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