All The Clothes I Bought In 2020

Late round-up, but this felt like the right time to go over my 2020 fashion spending before I start going wild buying new clothes as quarantine comes to an end.

Everything I Bought

J Crew Shorts – $17


At some point, I realized that if I was going to be home all the time, I should have more home clothes. Cue the elastic waistband shorts.

Adidas Grand Court Sneakers $47


I wanted to replace my old walking shoes with something basic but fun. These shoes fit the bill with the pop of yellow adding a little bit of flare to the plain white sneaker look.

J Brand Jeans – $30


Bought some extra jeans as I was starting to tear holes into my old ones. Unfortunately, these ended up being tighter than I wanted (even before I put on weight during the pandemic).

Entireworld Sweatpants – $75


I have mixed feelings about these sweatpants. On the one hand, even by sweatpants standards, they are comfy af. However, while the marketing makes you believe these may be good athleisure wear, I’ve found the cut of these to be baggy in a “not even a model can make this look flattering” sort of way. The website is whimsical in a way that put a smile on my face, but others may find it too twee and grating for their tastes. All in all, given the price, kind of disappointing.

Theory Linen Cropped Pants – $136 (3 pairs)


As the pandemic went on, I realized on the few occasions I did go outside that my pants were feeling a bit snug relative to what I was used to. In addition, wearing sweats kind of spoiled me to wanting to feel comfortable 100% of the time. These pants with their elastic waistband have been a happy medium— professional enough that I can use them as my work pant when we start going back into the office, but still very light and comfy. Plus they have pockets! I ended up getting these in three colors: black, sharkfin grey, and cream.

Total – $305


For a year I didn’t leave the house, I spent a surprisingly “normal” amount of clothing. $300 seems to be my magic number.

During the pandemic, I’ve felt zero pressure to look nicer or meet any sort of expectations of what I should look like. But now, thinking about going back out into the world again, I feel an urge to just round out my thirty year old yuppie wardrobe and be done with it: add a long-sleeve bodysuit, a neutral tote, a few loose fitting silk shirts, and a statement necklace, and I should be good to go.

I feel like I’m at an inflection point where I truly don’t feel young anymore, and I don’t know what that means for my sense of style. I don’t really care whether or not people think I look good so I’m kind of free to do whatever, but at the same time, don’t terribly have enough interest to double down on my own “personal style” so I just default to appropriate basics for my age, body, etc. Perhaps the best way to summarize it is: I’m too tired to care? I think these feelings are going to percolate into areas other than fashion too, as I feel more stable in my “identity” and less anxious about my place in the world. I’m interested in seeing where this goes in 2021.

What clothes did you buy in 2020? Do you have a budget for this year? What pieces do you have your eye on?

Distracting Myself With Fancy Things

I’ve got a lot of background anxiety about a lot of things right now. It’s work, other stuff with my family, one of my friends, and of course the election, the pandemic, and the impending doom of climate change. So right now I’ve decided to distract myself by thinking about fancy things because in the world of those fancy things, it is clean, minimalist, refined. Everything is perfectly splendid from my imaginary ivory tower.

So here are some of the things I have either bought or want to buy to distract myself from reality. (Editor’s note: Actually I only really bough the pants and the house painting below, everything else is idle desire.)

Theory linen pull on capris

Having not left the house basically ever for 6 months means all my clothes are tight and I refuse to wear pants without an elastic waist.

Rag and Bone Floral Hoodie

Granted, I have nowhere to where it given that I never leave the house, but I like the pattern. It’s as busy and scattered as my brain is right now, so we match.

The “perfect white sneaker”

Because if I’m going to start dressing like a zoomer, I’m going to need some cool shoes.

Ceremonial grade matcha

I watched a single video of Graham Stephan of all people making an iced matcha latte and now all I can think about is making some iced matcha lattes.

Horai - Matcha - Ippodo Tea USA & Canada
Ippodo Horai matcha tea


What’s the point of fancy tea if I can’t have the petit fours. No matter that a clump of tiny bite sized pastries shipped in from Minamoto Kitchoan cost approximately the same as a three course meal at a very nice restaurant.


A bakery near us makes the most delicious sachertorte. We got one for our wedding cake. Maybe taking a bite will remind me of those halcyon days when I could actually see people I cared about in person.

Image from Epicurious

Ridiculously expensive candles

These candles are, I kid you not, $85 a piece. Bougie parfumée indeed.

New computer

So this started happening to my laptop screen a week ago:

From iFixit

I could just live with it. Or I could pay a few hundred dollars to get the screen replaced. Or I could drop a couple thousand on a new laptop. Or I could just abandon technology altogether and go live in the woods.


Even if I live in the woods, I’ll probably need a phone to constantly scroll through Twitter, lest I forget for a moment my fear and anxiety. My two year old LG Nexus is on its last legs (barely charges, constantly lagging, just kind of a mess in general). Now may be the time for an upgrade.

One of those TVs that look like a framed painting

It looks nice and though there’s really no clear wall space to hang our TV it still is a completely practical idea because #insertreasonshere.

Samsung Frame TV

Also my house is a different color now and it cost me $5000.

This is the color my house is now, Benjamin Moore’s “Fairmont Green.”

Note it is much lighter in person. It’s not awful, but I’m still not sure I like it. C’est la vie!

How are you? Any material goods succoring your sense of anxiety and dread?

All The Clothes I Bought In The Second Half of 2019

Only one new item in the back half of the new year, but still a lot spent. You can check out my first six months of 2019 here. Now it’s time for the round up!

Everything I Bought

Mizuno Paradox 3 Running Shoes – $63 (Full Retail: $140)


Pretty much getting the same replacement running shoes on a six month cycle at this point. I still think these wear faster than the original Mizuno Paradox shoes, but I’m scared to change lest the next iterations are even worse. Womp, womp. 😦

Watch Repair – $275


Finally got my schmancy watch cleaned, tuned, and battery replaced. I kind of regret spending so much on this, since I barely wear it much. Oh well. Maybe I can sell it or something.

Leather Jacket Repair – $60

coach jacket

Got the shoulder of my leather jacket patched. Haven’t been able to wear it much since it’s been drippy and cold instead of sunny and cold, but I’m sure I’ll get good mileage out of this one.

Total – $398


Trying to be eco-conscious so instead of going out and buying replacements for worn items, I spent a lot on clothing repair. I’ll try to do the same with a pair of jeans I just tore through the knee by falling on the ground (ouch!).

In lieu of espadrilles this past summer, I just cycled in my old running shoes as daily walking fare, which helped with the heat issue. I’m less interested in jewelry now, mostly because it’d stand out weirdly at my workplace and I haven’t been as interested in dressing up lately.

In terms of 2020, I think I’ll continue cycling running shoes 2-3x/year. If it weren’t for the prospect of pregnancy, I would say my wardrobe feels pretty much “complete.” Not really sure how I’m supposed to dress when suddenly all my clothes don’t fit me, but we’ll cross that bridge when we get there.

What clothes have you bought this year? Do you have a budget? What pieces do you have your eye on?